Thursday, August 21, 2014

Just get in the back with Crazy...

Crazy. Have you ever met Crazy? I'm sure most, if not all, of you have at one point (or more) in your life have become acquainted. Unfortunately.

Crazy.

I've been all over the place with Crazy this summer, and it looks like our road trip from Insanity just keeps going. One thing after another, I'm to the point where I don't freak out at the next unexpected trip to Nuttso Town - either I'm stunned, numb or both - but now whenever something new jumps out at me and yells, "Surprise! And you thought you were about to get a handle on everything..." I say right back, "Just get in the back with Crazy."

And smile on.

What else can I do? Cry (more) and live my life like it's the end of the world? Nonsense. That is such a waste of time. And if I did, I wouldn't see/notice/realize that there are really good things happening in the midst of my summer with Crazy. Because there are!

So that's what I'd like to compile here - a list of the good in my life even though there's still Crazy.

* For starters, I have fallen in love with my husband all over again. Of course this happens once or twice every year (for the past 20 years) but it's fun and wonderful when it happens. As my readers know, I love Love.

* My book is being published! It's in the editing phase and we're working on various marketing ideas - both online and off - so my debut is the success I need it to be. I'm no one-book-pony show, my friends. I want this venture to continue and last forever (at least my forever ;)... So much work. Who knew writing the damn thing was the easy part?

* My kids amaze me with their growth, humor, style, interests, empathy, understanding, compassion, goofiness and all around awesomeness. I am so lucky and honored to be their mother.

* I've learned to ask for help...and use it! It's one thing to get to that humble playing field where you a) realize you need help, and b) ask for it. But it's a whole new ball of wax to actually USE it. And on a continual basis. Because, let me tell you. You don't know humble until you know you have to rely on others and actually rely on them.

* I met up with a friend I haven't seen in 22 years! I'm a long lost military brat, so I've had to make and let go of countless friends during my childhood. I went to 13 different schools in 5 states and 2 countries. That's a lot of moving around, which I loved. But it's also a lot of saying good bye. It was so great to finally get to say HELLO again :) Social media has afforded us military brats an avenue to reconnect, but nothing is like getting to hug and sit next to your friends again.

* I'm getting to be the crazy Aunt and I love it.

* I'm doing things I only dreamed about last summer. Like walking, standing, talking (and making sense). I had to make drastic changes to my life in order to do it - and it all might become a memoir some day - but I'm doing it. I ain't broke after all and I couldn't be more thankful for it. Now to figure out a way to make it permanent.

* Oh, and I fell in love with a horse. I've ridden horses before and didn't think twice about them. But this one. Oh. My. Horse. Love. I love him! He is 8 years old and has never been ridden, is scared to come out of his stall and has never been trained, taken care of properly or seen a vet. He has basically been abused and mistreated by never being treated at all. I met him, fed him some carrots and pet him on the nose. His owner insisted he never lets anyone touch his face. But I could see how caring this horse could be. So I gave him more carrots, hay, and encouraged him to move out of his stall to reach more carrots. One hoof. Two hooves. He quivered and shook with fear, but he got out of his stall to stand out of it with two hooves in, two hooves out. That's why I call him Two Hooves :) He's a doll and after another half hour of love and attention - the RIGHT kind of attention - he came out all the way and stood beautiful and proud! And got another carrot ;) He is kind, gentle and just needs love and attention. His owner wants to give him away for free, so if you want a horse and can take proper care of it, contact me. Otherwise, I'm trying to come up with a way to do it myself. No animal should be treated - or ignored. Every animal deserves love.

Wow. This list is getting long. And that's a good thing :)

But I think I'll stop here for now. Crazy is asleep and I want to get in a few "Orange is the New Black" episodes before I nod off to bed. Who knows what Crazy will throw at me tomorrow. But who cares, right?

Just get in the back...